shaking and shivering

     please ignore the overacting title above. I'm freakishly emotionless for the moment. but still have my eyes wide open for that UPU thing and stuff. according to a rumour, the IPTA placement results will be out on this Thursday. means there are only two days left. if it's true.

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     so what do we do? yes that's right. ask fervently from Allah swt so that we'll be placed to a place where we belong. meaning to say, if we think that we're genuinely hardworking and incredibly smart, then we shall pray for high prestige university with promising course, which suits ourselves. I mean, it's okay to be demanding. it's our future, our life. and that's the other way round. by the way, it's already Ramadhan. don't worry. Allah will  surely hear us all.

     on the other hand, I'm giving my full concentration on my driving license-making. if not, I'd probably be screaming like a maniac now because I'm oh-so terrified to find out about my UPU result. now that's the beauty of keeping our body and mind busy. and currently I'm a learner's license holder. you know, the one with the L. and tomorrow is gonna be the third day of my driving class. still suck at it. the clutch and the brake.. I don't know. I guess they just don't like me. ke aku pijak kuat sangat? nasib kaulah kan. dah memang kerja kau kena pijak. siapa suruh kau jadi clutch dengan brake pedal? dengan accelerator sekali terasa.

     harap-harap pada bulan yang mulia ni Allah lembutkan hati cikgu bila mengajar. nanti tak pasal-pasal dapat belajar bawa van jenazah free bulan puasa ni. and semoga Ramadhan kali ni lain dari bulan-bulan Ramadhan kita yang lepas - dari segi amal ibadat yang meningkat juga iman dan takwa yang semakin kukuh.

Matriculation ends

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     Alhamdulillah. you must think that I'm crazy for posting this picture of embarrassment. well I don't care whether my results are excellent or not. I'll still put them in here so that I can remember and realize my potential and reputation at all time.

     call me lazy, call me anything that's related to it. because it's true. but don't ever call me stupid. because, hell yeah, I know I'm not. I'm just a little bit stubborn. and there's a fine line between stupid and stubborn.

     so what can I say about my achievement? personally I think I did good. better than last semester's result. and if you can see there's an increase in pointer. that's 0.17. not much but at least it's worth staying up all night. of course the frantic, ineffective, last-minute studying.

     and how can I be so in peace when my pointer is totally not convincing me to further studies in any of my dream courses? I take a stance, "pointer hanya di atas kertas, rezeki Allah kita tak tahu. yang penting kita usaha cari."

     I never dreamed about getting all straight A's in the final or in any big tests. the only thing that I wished for is that I pass. and that's why I am where I am today.

p/s : I do afraid of istidraj.